I’m gonna freestyle a poem…… and for those who don’t know what freestylin is, don’t worry, in this context it only means that I can’t use the backspace. Things have changed alot since I saw you last I have a new lady, a baby, damn alot of time has past Well actually only a year [...]

Ok so I’m thinking somewhere in Iowa for my get away. Any suggestions? On another note, things are starting to look a little clearer Today was Rachel’s birthday and I didn’t get her anything, and if you know me then you know that its super rare for my lady not to be showered with gifts. [...]

I wish I hadn’t done it but what is done cannot be undone so I’ll just have to sit back and watch the fireworks. Had an exam @ 7 this morning, only to have to wait 30 minutes for somebody to come open the door. I took Aden to see Aimee, Michele and the rest [...]

And so another day passes and I realize that I’m getting better at what I need to do. XBOX 360 baby! The Daily Benji: “I would rather think too much than too little, ok I lied, I hate thinking”

I finally remembered to get my Invader Zim! Well thanks to the great and wise Megsta i might have a solution to “finding” myself. A little me time. Anybody wanna come? Well sorry, its just me, myself, and I for a whole weekend. Its something that I think I need but we’ll see if its [...]

When in doubt sing it out. What do you do when your so torn? How do you make a decision, or do you make one at all? I’m running away from myself to escape to where? My exams aren’t just coming from school these days.

The headaches are getting worse, now I know how Jack feels. I had that damn dream again. Seriously my mind should not be there. Laurie made a boy very nervous today, it was sooo precious! You go girl! Aden is getting bigger and smarter and he smiles more than anything now and boy can he [...]

Well I can’t say who they are but the winners of the 1st OCBENJI sweepstakes are getting their prizes mailed to them today!!!

In the words of JV, “My head be bangin!” The 3 am meetings Aden and me have been having are finally starting to take their toll. I’ll deal. I tried to make Rach’s 1st Mothers Day special with some Coldstone since the videotape of Aden and me didn’t work out. Oh well……….HAPPY MOMMY’S DAY RACHEL!!!! [...]

Maybe its the lack of sleep or the lack of self-truth but I’m overdue for a little truth serum. Let the list begin and think of it what you will. 1. I think about women other than Rachel 2. I don’t have full control of myself 3. I’ll have to face some deep dark secrets [...]