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Category: Random Thoughts

  • I am Ben

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    I am a Scorpio who has defeated his jealousy.I am a people loving introvert who is great at playing extrovert.I am a lover of animals and doesn’t want a pet.I am a lover of a good thunderstorm, warm summer rain or cool fall breeze.I am computer and anime nerd who craves sleeping under the stars,…

  • Swirlin Around

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    Swirlin Around   He sits down with himself to figure out why he does things the way that he does.  He is nice when there is a no reason to.  He is nice even though he shouldn’t be.  He smiles and does favors for those that might and sometimes already have spit in his face.…

  • Mistakes Made, Lessons Learned

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      The events of last two years have transformed me.  The fact that I can admit this is HUGE!!! (yea with 3 “!”’s)  I write this for myself as a reminder to not forget these valuable experiences.  And like anything else that I’ve done on my own for myself, it will end up coming from…

  • But I’m a Nice Guy…….

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    What is the nice guy and where did he come from?  Was he born or shaped?  Natural or contrived?  And why does he seem to get screwed over so much? Before I start, let me say that this applies to the “Good Girl” too.   What is a “Good Guy”? A good guy is somebody…

  • Perspective

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      How do you see things?   So I’m sitting on the couch getting upset because of the actions of somebody.  And if you know me then you know that I rarely get upset but when I do get upset, a nuclear explosion is eminent!  I was about to open my mouth and erupt when that other…

  • Enough

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    Her:  “I love you” Me:   “How much?” Her:  “Enough” That’s the tail end of a conversation that a had with someone a long time ago.  I didn’t understand it at the time but she was 100% right/truthful/correct in her answer to me.  At the time I was a bit disappointed with her answer.  I wanted…

  • Love or Fear?

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    I was talking with someone that I admire very much and she told me that you act either out of Love or Fear.  Love cannot exist in fear and fear cannot exist in love. Hearing it woke me up a little.  Actually alot!  I started questioning my actions of late.  Was I acting out of…

  • Stalking Yourself

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    Stalking Yourself Contradiction.  In case you missed it, let me say it again.  Contradiction.  That’s what we all are.  What?  Its in that great divide between how most of us act versus who we really are inside and what we really want to do.  I understand that we have to behave in order to keep…

  • Therapy for Friday Morning

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    1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and point a Hair Dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down. 2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don’t Disguise Your Voice! 3. Every Time Someone Asks You To Do Something, ask If They Want Fries with that. 4.. Put Decaf In The…

  • Bliss Requires Sweat

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    Now i’ve always said that love is like playing the lottery but I never did any homework on it.  Luckily the lovely Danielle LaPorte, owner of the magical site White Hot Truth, pretty much broke it down.  Take a Read