I had more fun this weekend than I should have had. I drank again. I thought Aden hated me. Ever since he was little, every time he saw my face, he would just smile through his excited eyes. But over the weekend, it was all about playing with his aunt and cousins. Granted they are closer to his age but I thought I was more fun. He used to break my heart with his pleading for me to stay when I had to leave him with a babysitter but now he just says bye and even closes the door. I thought all hope was lost until today. He was my baby boy again and loved me more than anybody else. It was the best feeling ever. Like an orgasm on a roller coaster. I’m still coming down from that high as yells to me from his room. The good times just keep rolling: I’m in my room and Aden is in his. I let out a huge fart and after 3 seconds Aden starts laughing and says, “Daddy did you fart?” I reply, “ Yea, you got me.” Aden quickly responds, “Aden farted too. Love you daddy, night night” You can’t buy it that good people.

I slept/snuggled next to a beautiful woman the other night. She loves her son. We talked about our children and other life stuff. She was really smart and up to date on a lot of issues. Even though we had differing opinions, I respected her a lot. She snores pretty loud, just like the other beautiful woman under us. So while I served as the meat in this slumber sandwich and since our position kept putting my arm to sleep, I decided that instead of sleeping, my time would be better spent pondering. Its good to just let your mind off the leash every once in a while.

There is something changing in me. Its a good change I guess. Its a more serious, mature, wise, sexy, confident, funny, cool, suave side coming out. Its like I’m Stephan or something. And it only kicks in when pretty girls that I like are around. Its like a cool boner. Its like everything in the world makes sense and its all easy. My mind is in a state of Zen and I’m the most charming fucker on the planet. Maybe just in my own mind. Its probably just the booze killing off the bad brain cells. More than anything, its taught me one thing I lacked, patience. Which leads me to my next paragraph…

Time, is like a movie. As I pondered in the snore factory, I realized that you can just think back about stuff in the past and almost relive them, and in the same respect the future. The present is ever-moving and can only be pinpointed my your current location in the movie. In the Book of Benji it is written, “Deja Vu reminds us that we already know the future.” Much in the same fashion, we just need a way to fast forward. Problem is, the only way to fast forward to tomorrow is to go to sleep and wake up in the future which would at that time be the present. I still think we can take little peaks and already have, thus the deja vu. Its like you saw a cool part of a movie in a trailer and then you see it when your watching the movie and your all like, “Yea!” Only thing is, you forgot that you saw the trailer. And thats all I got to say about that.

In other news, I finally released the Crazy OC Remix which, if you don’t listen to the poorly pronounced lyrics, the song won’t make “that” much sense. But it is a pretty multi-layered song because of the sensitive touchy subject that it touches on. At first I didn’t like it but the more I hear it, the more I like it and hopefully you will too. I actually sing on it. Its dedicated to Ray, who slept in front of me while I started writing it more than a year ago.

Today was my first day being a manager. I did pretty well considering “she” plagued my mind all day.