I had a conversation yesterday with a guy that I have been in an on again/off again relationship with for the past two plus years.  (Yes it’s been that long for those of you that know me)  We were talking about why we can’t seem to make it on the same page.  Ever.  And we did figure out that a lot of it is based on mistakes we have both made over the past few years… lies, hiding stuff, best friends, etc.  A lot of hurtful things have occured.  So through all of this I had to ask myself a few questions.  Why do we continue to put each other through this?  All we seem to do is hurt each other and he really doesn’t even seem to like me too much anymore.  At least when he talks he talks that way.  Which is very confusing.  A lot of men always say that women are changing our minds consistently but when it comes to how you feel you’re words and you’re actions are usually very different.  Especially around your “boys.”  (Got off track sorry)  But he’s a classic his words and actions say two very different things.  Consistently.  But I do know that recently he has really been trying to make things right.  So I have to ask myself this… Since I know he’s trying so hard why am I so hard on him?  Why is it that everything he does I will still find something wrong?  I won’t lie… he can’t win.  And I don’t know how to fix that…