Ever hurt so bad that you can’t feel it?  Felt so cold that it was almost warm?  Ever felt so alone that you feel like your in good company?

The Re-Up

Life isn’t fair no matter how good you live or how long you stand firm
So don’t be fooled by what they tell you, the early bird doesn’t always get the worm
But thus is life, no promises made or contracts signed
Tommorow isn’t even for sure, we can just live life blind
But there is something for which even in uncertainty  we all strive
Hope, the little belief and usual lie that we believe in to stay alive
A very fickle idea like Santa Clause or the Easter Bunny
We know it not to be true but we still paint the eggs and look under the tree
I used to have hope, a strong believer in fact
But I learned the hard way to just look at things a certain way and take it like that
I was led away from my feelings before, never again
I’m right and always was, I am but a man
My tank has been on emtpy and the fumes are running low
I got nothing left now, heart empty with nothing to show
I can’t afford another gamble or another pull at the slot
I went for broke on a sure thing only to find out its not
I had it all, finally happy and ready to love again
But once again fate steps in and tell me to talk to the hand
Lives fit together like legos, too perfect, there’s gotta be something I missed
I’ve seen everything in life but christ, but here is something to add to the list
A kiss, a kind word, a hug, a promise, a future
All unintentional lies, I wonder if I ever even touched her
I can’t point the finger, you gotta follow your heart
Too bad what you leave behind was broken apart
Its nobody’s fault but I still want to blame
No gas left but I still want to flame
Too good to be true was just that, truer words were never spoken
Smoke signs so thick my lungs feel broken
One was pushed away, Two left but helped me awaken
Third time was supposed to be the charm, but it was taken
And while all I can do is sit back in the tide of emotions and ride the wave
My ship that I thought had come in, is sailing away
This game isn’t over yet, there are still some moves to be made
But time will tell, until then I’ll just stay in the shade.
I write without thinking but there is a point you shouldn’t miss
These are the lessons I’ve learned and they go a little something like this
Life will teach you a lesson over and over until you learn it
I’m hard-headed i guess, my dumbass kept trying to hope, I quit
Faith in, hopes of, and beliefs about her, like her, can’t be trusted
It ain’t her fault, history repeats, and I just got dusted.