The last 5 days truely had an effect on my yesterday, luckily I called in to my last shift or else I would have totally lost it. Ms. Westemeier picked up that something was wrong but it took my lady to actually pinpoint the problem. I thought things I shouldn’t have yesterday and voiced it. Alcohol of course came up and I inquired the reasons for its use. I had a jello shot, a very strong jello shot and as with all alcohol i consume, regreted it. Not the fact that I did something that I wanted to do, but that it had to involve alcohol. Everybody had fun though so I just made sure to stay out of the way and not ruin anybody’s fun. I got a glimpse into a future hopeful job. The jury is still out on that one. Jarvis finally popped the big question to his lady on thanksgiving, damn that was a hard secret to keep. Last night I got a random call from an old good friend. I witnessed yet another great relationship go down the tubes. My lady asked me a question that I heart screams yes to but my head must regretfully decline. The queen of my new home is becoming more interesting and is turning into a good read. The lady is becoming even more irresistable (if possible) and is seeping deeper in my life. I wonder if she is really ready yet. We got a little snow yesterday, I think. I could’ve been seeing shit for all I know, this lack of sleep is really getting to me. I will rest up good tonight for Aden. I miss my baby boy too much. I’ve realized that I’ve been doing everything to keep myself busy to not think about him not being around. I hope I don’t freak him out when I get him tomorrow. Well I at least I’ve moved from 4 to too many to count. Jarvis and the new lady seem to get along, both of them are cocky as hell so it shouldn’t surprise me. I lost alot of hair yesterday and its feeling a little chilly. Hmmmmmm chilly would taste really good right now. I really want some Lula’s Cafe, hopefully Danie wants to go after I get off work. That tea is the shit.
Warning: Lack of sleep can affect your thinking
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