Leave Her Alone

“Just leave her alone” The thoughts run though my head again
You have plenty reason and logic to make your stand
All you have to do is just get up and walk thru that door
And never come back, and you won’t have to feel like this anymore
But as I make up my mind to make my move I hesitate,
What is it about her that paralyzes my legs and makes me wait?
Is it how I love the kids?  Or is it how she chases away this feeling of lonely?
Is it her life and how I would be a perfect fit in it? Or the way she calls me on my bologna?
Whatever the reason, my head is telling my heart its a stupid move to stay
And my heart argues back that there is something there that won’t let me push her away
Its a push and pull attraction that can’t be healthy, sane, or wrong
Its like not understanding but still falling in love with a foreign song
When its dark and we’re intertwined everything feels right
I don’t use my eyes but still see her with perfect sight
I use my hands to say the words and I can’t express
“I love you” I say with a rub cause my mouth can’t confess
Her draw is intoxicatingly addictive
And just when I think I’ve quit it becomes repetitive
Asking why it is the way it is is pointless so I quit
But the thought still lingers in the back of my head, “When will I quit”
Cause as detached as attempt to be, I’m still flirtin
The more I struggle against the quicksand the more I get sucked in
Its not her intention to cast that spell
She’s just being herself and thats the hammer hitting the nail
So when I think about giving up the little bit of her that I have
I hesitate, I delay, postpose for just one more grab
She’s like pringles, being around her is that pop I can’t stop
My mind tells me to slow down, “You’ll get hurt by that cop”
“She’s not a safe bet, cut your losses  and cash out”
But I roll my dice again even though my brain screams out