Good luck decoding that M

He sees what he wants but knows better, first it was his trust in others that failed and now it’s his trust in himself, he knows the game a little too well, he knows its rigged. More and more thoughts run through his head as he edges his way toward the cliff’s end. The view is the best at this time of night. It reminds him of how close we are always to the end, how we are just flames dancing on the wick of youth destined to burn out. He’s seen almost everything that has to be seen. He’s watched life start and end examined it from sperm to earn. What is it all about? What does it all mean? He knows contemplating such questions are pointless. His wisdom is enough that he knows that he knows nothing, he still continues to learn his way deeper into a hole. He knows to watch the watcher. He has learned the game. A disgusting game it is but he still has to play for a little while longer. He treats conversations with her like games of chess. He knows that the best way to fool a person is to let them think they’ve fooled you. His emotions have burned out long ago so he takes a break only to discover that a break from life means your dead. The pieces are almost in place and he’s going to make the first move soon….. He knows what he has to do, a plan over 2 decades in the making……