I have the intense surges of longing.
\nNothing in particular, no one really in mind…but just this immense feeling that I should be somewhere else.
\nI feel like I have these pent up emotions that need to be expressed.
\nIf I were cut open they would spill out of me, and be the loudest boom of insane but quite lovely noise.<\/p>\n
I just feel so restless, and wish I could express them, before I lose them entirely.
\nI’m so tired of making excuses, so tired of myself being frustrated, and I can not wait for the release of my spirit.<\/p>\n
I just need some satisfaction in the fact I’m doing amazingly better than I did last year, and some validation that I am worth more than I felt before.<\/p>\n
Listening to music just excites me more and more.
\nI feel like any song could move me to tears, for no reason at all….which it repeatedly has in the past 24 hours.<\/p>\n
My soul is weary to be free,
\nTo find it’s half,
\nBut in all the same to be whole.<\/p>\n
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