{"id":354,"date":"2007-11-28T22:12:00","date_gmt":"2007-11-29T03:12:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ocbenji.com\/blog\/?p=354"},"modified":"2007-11-28T22:12:00","modified_gmt":"2007-11-29T03:12:00","slug":"the-secret-is-out","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/2007\/11\/28\/the-secret-is-out\/","title":{"rendered":"The Secret is Out"},"content":{"rendered":"

Things will be so much different this year. I will be where my boss was, “she” won’t be here. I will be the only warmth in my bed. Hopeless romantic, ha! I made a decision to cross a bridge into new territory. I don’t think I’ll be able to cross it again, only wave to my old neighbors as I move on. “Excited Melancholy”I described myself as. I should be smiling, happy, jubilant but I keep my game face on, ready for whatever comes my way next.  I dream of a slower life, a life with people I love, people I can help.  A life where I work hard and play hard.  A life where all of the petty things are done away with so that I can concentrate on the important things.  A life of quiet reflection and deeper understanding.  A life of pleasant  surprises.  A life where rolling over being exhausted after a job well done or a game well played is commonplace.  A life where walks aren’t really planned or even mapped out.  A life where a family get together consists of everybody being able to fit in the same huge house and there isn’t a need for anybody to get a hotel room.  A life of abundance the way its meant to be.  A life of love and freedom.  Tears and laughter, happiness and sorrow, elders and newborns, Tears from laughing and crying.  Children growing up, and raising their own.  Helping others reach their true potential and through doing its realizing your own.  Always pushing the envelop as far as possible.  Creating and living in your own Utopia, just because you can.  Finding what really makes you happy in life.  Not worrying about what you drive but what drives you, not caring about what you live in but whats living in you.  Knowing that money is easy to get once you believe that it is.  Spending the majority of your time doing what you want, not what you have to do to pay a bill.  This is the life I have.  I have countless loved ones and countless projects on my desk to accomplish.  Its all there for each and every one of us once we believe it is.  Life isn’t meant to be a struggle.  Goodnight.<\/p>\n

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Things will be so much different this year. I will be where my boss was, “she” won’t be here. I will be the only warmth in my bed. Hopeless romantic, ha! I made a decision to cross a bridge into new territory. I don’t think I’ll be able to cross it again, only wave to […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[135],"class_list":["post-354","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-ben"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/354","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=354"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/354\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=354"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=354"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=354"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}