Past failures make you do what you should never do and that is second guess yourself. I had a friend in high-school who I really admired because she had the ability to see the truth in things. I always wondered how she did it until about earlier this year when I figured out how to do it. Its a different path for everyone on how to get there but once you do, everything makes sense and you are ok with things you weren’t with before. Its like trying to read a book in Spanish and then living in Mexico for 5 years and then trying to read the book again. Yea, its like that. Your hindsight becomes better than 20\/20. Beware, things that you thought you knew will change and you can’t hang on to hold things that do you no good anymore. Apologies might have to be given. New truths will be discovered and you will not be able to go back home because your new one being built on it. <\/p>\n
You were right, I thought I loved you, and I really did want to. You passed all five tests with flying colors but still came out black and white. I looked at pictures of you and let my mind wander back to the good ole times when it was all so much easier and fun. The snow looked good in your hair. You were amazing to me. But things are different now, as they are after every day that passes and you’ve broken me all the way down. I have to keep pushing forward, cause I’m the only one who can carry him and I. We will have those good times back but without you. Thanks for showing me what I deserved and that people like you are out there.<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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