Things have changed alot since I saw you last
\nI have a new lady, a baby, damn alot of time has past
\nWell actually only a year and some change
\nBut in that time I\u2019ve made a big change
\nI\u2019ve seen things that I thought could only be imagined
\nFelt things that I thought could never be challenged
\nBut low and behold we always come full circle and I face you again
\nNose to Nose, Breath to Breath, I now stand as a man
\nAlot wiser, less strong, but happier than before
\nCause you have no idea what I have in store
\nI\u2019ve found what I\u2019ve searched for if only in small doses
\nI finally followed my heart and made some wrong choices
\nI regret nothing, for it all helped me come to this point
\nSo when its all over and when Aden is asked where\u2019s dad? He can just point
\nAll the training is over, the plans are finished
\nThe fear is all gone, the pain diminished
\nSo do your worse but know that its nothing to me
\nI\u2019ve been in your shoes but they didn\u2019t fit me
\nI\u2019m sorry for what I put you through
\nBut there was always a chance for failure and you knew
\nThis will be the end no more meeting, jobs, or missions
\nI\u2019m done with the lies and deception. This is one of my final decisions
\nYou might be reading this but most likey you won\u2019t understand
\nJust know that I\u2019ve gotten too fast for your quicksand
\nToo smart for your illusions, too wise for your lies
\nToo confident for your worries, and too quiet for your spies
\nLook into my eyes and realize that they\u2019ve gotten warmer as well as colder
\nAnd more people know now so keep a watch over your shoulder
\nI\u2019m not alone anymore so this time the numbers will be even
\nSo when I win this time you\u2019ll actually be leavin
\nI apologize no more, the guilt has been withdrawn
\nNo more holding back, you won\u2019t survive the til dawn
\nOn the eve of battle is where a warrior\u2019s soul burns the most bright
\nSo lets drink the gas, light the match, and see who lasts thru the night
\nI have alot more to lose this time and even more to gain
\nSo pull as hard as you can, you\u2019ll never break this chain
\nThis time I\u2019ll stare at your sacrifice with an un-blinking eye
\nThis time won\u2019t be like the last, no tears left to cry
\nThis time I\u2019ll do what I want and not what I should
\nThis time I won\u2019t be sorry to do what I could
\nThis time I will be honest and not swayed
\nThis time that game won\u2019t be played
\nThis time emotions won\u2019t matter, all distractions laid to rest
\nThis time I have that #2 pencil and I\u2019m ready for that test
\nThis is your last song so prepare to sing it
\nFor these are my last words, \u201cBring it!\u201d<\/p>\n
The Daily Benji:
\n\u201cSome things you\u2019ll see, some you won\u2019t, but you\u2019ll feel them all\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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