{"id":2934,"date":"2010-01-05T11:42:20","date_gmt":"2010-01-05T17:42:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/?p=2934"},"modified":"2010-01-11T10:33:57","modified_gmt":"2010-01-11T16:33:57","slug":"stalking-yourself","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/2010\/01\/05\/stalking-yourself\/","title":{"rendered":"Stalking Yourself"},"content":{"rendered":"

Stalking Yourself<\/strong><\/h2>\n

Contradiction.\u00a0 In case you missed it, let me say it again.\u00a0 Contradiction<\/strong>.\u00a0 That’s what we all are.\u00a0 What?\u00a0 Its in that great divide between how most of us act versus who we really are inside and what we really want to do.\u00a0 I understand that we have to behave in order to keep the job, the marriage or relationship, or friends.\u00a0 But the longer you do that, the more repressed you make they person deep inside you.<\/p>\n

With financial times being tough right now (but really, when aren’t they tough?) I can understand the fear in letting your real self shine through.\u00a0 What will people think?\u00a0 Will they accept you?\u00a0 Will you lose everything you’ve working for?\u00a0 WHO CARES!<\/strong> It wasn’t the real you who gained all those things anyway.\u00a0 Let me backtrack, it was you but not he whole<\/strong> you.\u00a0 You used to be you a long time ago when you were a kid.\u00a0 You looked at possibilities and weren’t concerned with what couldn’t be done.\u00a0 This was the you without limits, without somebody telling you couldn’t do something or that it was too hard or costs too much.\u00a0 But of course you know what happened.\u00a0 You grew up and started living in “reality”.\u00a0 And you learned that the good guy doesn’t always win or even come close, that being a good boy or girl doesn’t always get you want you want.\u00a0 Where all of the fairytales started to unravel and the truth was woven in its place.\u00a0 Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t all bad and for most people this realization was even good.\u00a0 But you learned to live in a box, you learned not to run when you wanted to, to not sing too loud, to not act too wild, to not speak your mind because somebody might see it as rude.\u00a0 These rules probably saved you a few ass kickings but in exchange it cost you a bit of yourself.<\/p>\n

I was talking to my special lady last night and she pointed out that she knows the side that I show her is fake.\u00a0 A shell of who I have to be to keep juggling the things in my life successfully and give my little man a life I didn’t have.\u00a0 Hypocritical I know but I don’t know if I would be a good dad by being myself.\u00a0 This very special lady threw some more common sense my way, “The real you is in between who you have to be and who you want to be.”\u00a0 So simple yet so powerful.\u00a0 Realizing that I have to close the gap to get real, I’ll be taking some time to stalk the inner me.\u00a0 I recommend you do the same.\u00a0 My special lady knows how to play by the rules but also know how to take time to be herself.\u00a0 She can be rude, mean, loud, and all of those other things that alot of us are too “polite” to be.\u00a0 I love her for it because its HER!<\/strong> There isn’t a question in my mind that that’s the way she really feels from the core of her soul.\u00a0 And even if I don’t agree, I respect and love it.\u00a0 She still has alot of contradiction (see definition above)\u00a0 in her but she is light years ahead of alot of people (including me) in closing the gap.\u00a0 And that is the reason that I listen when she talks!\u00a0 Anyway, that’s the point, CLOSE the CONTRADICTION GAP!<\/strong> Because in the middle is where you will find the real you.\u00a0 Not the fairlytale you who believes in everything and not the you who pretends, but the you that’s a perfect mix of the person you have to be and want to be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Stalking Yourself Contradiction.\u00a0 In case you missed it, let me say it again.\u00a0 Contradiction.\u00a0 That’s what we all are.\u00a0 What?\u00a0 Its in that great divide between how most of us act versus who we really are inside and what we really want to do.\u00a0 I understand that we have to behave in order to keep […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[338,335],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2934","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-book-of-benji","category-random-thoughts"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2934","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2934"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2934\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2934"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2934"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2934"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}