Maybe its the lack of sleep or the lack of self-truth but I’m overdue for a little truth serum. Let the list begin and think of it what you will.<\/p>\n
1. I think about women other than Rachel
\n2. I don’t have full control of myself
\n3. I’ll have to face some deep dark secrets one day
\n4. I care about too many people
\n5. At first, the idea of being a father scared me
\n6. I fear what I’m capable of when I pass the point of caring
\n7. Everything will not be ok just because I say it will
\n8. I don’t have the strength to break another heart
\n9. I do have a mental problem that I will get fixed one day
\n10. I always try to delay the inevitable
\n11. Rachel is the best for me
\n12. I’ll never reach my mom’s expectations of me
\n13. I love Aden more than I know yet
\n14. I still believe that I will end up alone again
\n15. I fear becoming alone like my father
\n16. I’m a chaser, not the chased
\n17. I’m a well hidden nerd
\n18. I don’t know what happiness is
\n19. I fear what I need, change
\n20. I’m a natural father
\n21. I can move heaven and earth to get something done when I want to
\n22. I don’t fully understand love yet
\n23. I’m usually scared to do what I want to do
\n24. I fear everyday that Rachel will find somebody better
\n25. I’m scared what people will think about me after they read this<\/p>\n
I’m really honest tonight
\nI guess practice makes perfect.
\nNight<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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