I had a conversation yesterday with a guy that I have been in an on again\/off again relationship with for the past two plus years.\u00c2\u00a0 (Yes it’s been that long for those of you that know me)\u00c2\u00a0 We were talking about why we can’t seem to make it on the same page.\u00c2\u00a0 Ever.\u00c2\u00a0 And we did figure out that a lot of it is based on mistakes we have both made over the past few years… lies, hiding stuff, best friends, etc.\u00c2\u00a0 A lot of hurtful things have occured.\u00c2\u00a0 So through all of this I had to ask myself a few questions.\u00c2\u00a0 Why do we continue to put each other through this?\u00c2\u00a0 All we seem to do is hurt each other and he really doesn’t even seem to like me too much anymore.\u00c2\u00a0 At least when he talks he talks that way.\u00c2\u00a0 Which is very confusing.\u00c2\u00a0 A lot of men always say that\u00c2\u00a0women are changing our minds consistently but when it comes to how you feel you’re words and you’re actions are usually very different.\u00c2\u00a0 Especially around your “boys.”\u00c2\u00a0 (Got off track sorry)\u00c2\u00a0 But he’s a classic his words and actions say two very different things.\u00c2\u00a0 Consistently.\u00c2\u00a0 But I do know that recently he has really been trying to make things right.\u00c2\u00a0 So I have to ask myself this… Since I know he’s trying so hard why am I so hard on him?\u00c2\u00a0 Why is it that everything he does I will still find something wrong?\u00c2\u00a0 I won’t lie… he can’t win.\u00c2\u00a0 And I don’t know how to fix\u00c2\u00a0that…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I had a conversation yesterday with a guy that I have been in an on again\/off again relationship with for the past two plus years.\u00c2\u00a0 (Yes it’s been that long for those of you that know me)\u00c2\u00a0 We were talking about why we can’t seem to make it on the same page.\u00c2\u00a0 Ever.\u00c2\u00a0 And we […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-235","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/235","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=235"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/235\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=235"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=235"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ocbenji.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=235"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}