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So I’m a really intellectual person, I’m in my head more than I should be.\u00a0 I think about things wayyyyyy too much sometimes and to get my mind off of something or somebody, I focus on something else as a distraction.\u00a0 Something I should be focusing on.\u00a0 I now realize that this is a mistake, I should deal with why I obsess over things so that I stop obsessing.\u00a0 I should stop dumping pails of water out of a sinking boat and find a way to plug the hole in the boat.\u00a0 I’m kinda bipolar when it comes to things so I’m either all about it or don’t care at all, which is why I probably have been using my distraction method.\u00a0 One other way that I have found that works is to write out what I’m thinking about. I think I’ll try it.<\/p>\n
Right now I’m obsessing about somebody that I’m getting to know (Lets call her the hip hop hippie or HHH).\u00a0 I’m trying to decide to how I feel about her and what she will be to me.\u00a0 And as usual I’m over analyzing everything little thing that goes on in our interactions.\u00a0 I try to break down what this word or that gesture meant or what I should say to make her think this or that with me.\u00a0 This is normally not that hard.\u00a0 I can usually read people in a few minutes but my radar ain’t working on her.\u00a0 I just can’t read her and its really fustrating when\u00a0 all I want to do is just shut up and enjoy her company.\u00a0 Earlier in the day I knew it was bad cause I didn’t get my normal call from her the night before and was thinking about her all day at work and lit up like a xmas tree when HHH called.\u00a0 I know its nowhere near healthy to feel such highs and lows from another person but I love the feeling.\u00a0 It’ll wear off one day but until then, I’m just gonna enjoy the ride.\u00a0 We had dinner tonight.\u00a0 And I finally got an answer on how a feel about her.\u00a0 Now what I’m gonna do with those feelings is another question.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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